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Sunday, 25 October 2009

1) (I will understate this...) I had an awesome SURPRISE BRIDAL SHOWER. Um pretty much my bridesmaids are awesome. It was lovely, amazing.....I got so many wonderful gifts!!!

2) When it rains a lot, it smells like a lot of poop in our house because we have a septic system.

Monday, 19 October 2009

Birth Control

I am getting married, so I obviously need to start thinking about birth control. It's funny, things that are wrong, and now okay-- I mean, it's hard to understand that something we need to avoid now, is something we should embrace in a few months until death. haha. There is really nothing else like this. Well, I suppose we could say that this is the same for anything that would be inappropriate at a certain time in life, but more appropriate later in life. Well, like drinking, possibly.

It was strange how we look down on girls getting birth control before they are married (well, my circle of friends would), and now I should look at it as something just normal. Of course I feel a little bit awkward whenever I run into condoms in the convenience store, but last week I saw them, and I thought, "Oh... I guess I will need to start buying these...." haha.

Well, aside from condoms, I will be using the FAM, or the Fertility Awareness Method to keep from getting pregnant, for a few years. This is an all-natural method of birth control, and if used correctly, can be as reliable as The Pill. I'm interested in getting involved with the website they have, because of all the answered questions I have. As much as I am excited that we are going the natural way, I am also nervous.

So how does this birth control work? This book basically teaches you how to understand how your body works, in regard to your fertility. Everyday your waking body temperature tells you something about your fertility. The book offers charts so you can mark down your waking temperature, and you'll see some kind of rising, falling and steadiness about your cycle. This is what I am working on right now, but there are also two other ways to cross-reference your fertility, to be more certain of where you're at in your cycle.

If you want more information, read "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" or go to www.tcoyf.com

Saturday, 03 October 2009

Where is the beauty in trying to find everything cheap?

But have I a choice when all is too expensive?

I dunno.

Monday, 21 September 2009

Lord, I am feeling so incredibly "blah."
teach me contentment.
I miss Christian and my friends. Life feels different these days for me. I suppose it feels different for most people. Ugh. I just need to get over it and be content.
Seek first his kingdom.....

Monday, 07 September 2009

Currently
Two Days in Paris
By Albert Delpy, Julie Delpy, Adam Goldberg, Adan Jodorowsky, Chick Ortega
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A Cooldown

I don't really understand couples who do not fight or argue. I feel like crap right now, but, at the same time, I will remember this time and am glad for the arguments. If you know me well (maybe few do), you will know that one of my deepest desires is to know someone well, and have myself be known by them. That, to me is what true love is. It's not romantic, it's not sharing the same music taste, it's not waking up at the same time (and going to bed at the same time), it's not caring about the same issues to the same degree, it's not even loving God the same amount.
True-- love is non existant apart from God (God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in Him) However, due to our fallen state, we do not love God in a proper, equal way. I think when we are with God in our perfected state, we will all love Him 100%. Until then, I can only pray that my loved ones love God at all, and then strive to do whatever I can to help them in their own personal walk with God. God does save Israel (Redeem Israel, O God, from all their troubles!)but this fulfillment (already but not yet), is yet to come.
Anyway, I am talking about a relationship. If founded upon the Lord, it will last, because our strength and will comes from God. This is my hope for the future.
I have things I want corrected about him, but he has his own things he wants me to correct about myself, or accept about him. These things are yet to be resolved, and I look forward to figuring them out.
Let me not lose hope, as I feel it sometimes. I am worn out. I am frustrated. He is so conditional and specific about what he does and does not like. He hates, he loves-- he is an extremest. I feel like I will never be able to relax and know that I am pleasing him. He is a worrywart. But he loves what is good to love. He is a better lover of God, and yet he is not. I am better, but he is better. He annoys me, but I do not support him. This is something to be learned in any relationship. We are soul-disectors, but we have different methods and we have different theories... pretty similar results, but the process is difficult to bear with each other.
I am worn out. God, help me to love the Word and depend on it alone-- this is how I will love my brother.